Just recently, my friends and I came across this fun site where people can ask you questions and you can also do the same.

Dare to ask me anything, I'll try to give my best answer.:)
http://ask.fm/chakringggg


These past few days, too many negative vibes are encircling around me. So, I found a very cute song to just lighten up the mood.

Me saying, "Hello Mr. Sunshine!"

Maybe it’s the weather to blame. No, it's a lame excuse maybe it’s me. I was inspired to write a poem and express myself through writing. I apologize for any grammatical error. :D 

I know I can be damn too difficult at times.Bear with me :)

My feet head towards you.

I've waited for years and I choose not to settle for anything less than I deserve.

  

Last Saturday where I got to spend a fun movie weekend getaway with my best friends, we watched the movie Pitch Perfect. (I know it’s 2013 and it’s my first time to watch it J) It’s a super hilarious film shown on cinemas last 2012. It’s packed with some of my favorite songs and the nice thing about that movie is that it keeps on reminding me of the things that I have to do with my life.

The quote says it all. :)

Love What You Do

I know I can be stubborn at times. It is not in my nature to go where the crowd goes. I like doing things my way. On a positive note, I’ve always been a believer of my dreams and my passion. In Pitch Perfect, it is simple as it is. If you want to be like P. Diddy and you think you are skilled and good at it then go for it. The limits that you set for yourself are the only limitations. After all, what will you gain if you are not even willing to risk anything? Just like what Steve Jobs said, you don’t have to live in a social dogma. Live the life the way you want it, they way you imagine it to be. In the end, you will only regret the chances you didn’t take.

Now that I am already 25, I know there are still a lot of things that will come my way. But I am willing to fight for my dreams until the end. How will I know if I would not try?

A quote from my all time fave philosopher Lao Tzu

Stop Running Away!

The lead character, played by Anna Kendrick, somehow resembles me in so many ways. Going back, I don’t know where this habit of pushing someone away comes to life. I don’t know if it is because of my fear that I might entrust my heart again to someone who does not deserve it, someone who will break it or is it because I’m just afraid as to what might happen if there is someone who will actually fall in love with me.

But I think my friends are right. I seriously need to rethink my position and I have to find my way back again. I’ve said this a million times and I’ve tried so hard but I guess I need to try harder. Guess, I need to start to get up on my sleeves.

So, future beau, please bear with me haha. I know it may take a little bit longer but I hope I’ll be ready and whole. I hope I can be the best person I can be when you meet me.

"Do you know what's waiting beyond that beach? Immortality! Take it, it's yours."-Achilles

Phobia No. 1: Going to a Hospital and Seeing a Doctor

While going to the hospital a few days agoback, it dawned on me how I simply and utterly hate going to hospital. I can’t bear staying in a medical facility for so long or worst; have myself examined by a doctor. I don’t know if it’s because it pains me to see people sick, huge needles or my fear of blood, or probably, all of them.

Ask me if I sleep with lights on? Before…Yes! Haha

My childhood days were spent with lights in my room all turned on. Mind you, my body knows if the light is turned on or turned off even if I am half asleep or when my mind is already in neverland.

Upon entering the university where I stayed in a dormitory, I had no choice but to fight back my fears. My dormates can’t and wouldn’t sleep with lights on.

Thank God I’ve overcome my fear of dark and enclosed spaces. If not, I’ll be stuck out in the elevator with people thinking if I’m a mindless triglodyte lost somewhere in space.

I like kerro keroppi too but not the real ones.

Phobia #3: Fear of Frogs

Whew…just typing the words already gives me those scary chills. 

Animal related phobia is quite normal; I don’t have a friend saying he/she likes holding snakes though I’ve seen some who do.

Goodness. Hearing their kokak kokak chant can almost take the wits out of me. I don’t know what happens but once I see them they really start getting on my nerves. It starts to feel grumpy, slimy, yucky.. I can come up with hundreds of adjectives to describe it now haha.

There’s even one instance where in one of the activities of our organization, we were asked to hold two frogs. You would not have guessed what happened. I freaked out and cried like a river ( Never seen myself cried a liter of tears). For 30 minutes, my stomach turned upside down as my hands held the frogs. Holding them again for another or hour so is enough to kill me haha.

What I always do: pack my things lol

Fear No. 4: Unknown/ Lethal/ Dangerous

But among these fears, there is this type which starts to subtly make its way to me, operating clandestinely in my already drained thoughts. All this time, it’s there. To my surprise, some can even notice it without me knowing.

“You’re always good at running away.” “Lagi kang pack-up mode.”

There appears to be truth in what they say. For this fear is my waterloo, the kind of fear that may break me or can make me whole again.

Running away is not easy either. Days and nights get by where I end up over-analyzing and regretting of some of the chances I wish I could have done something, say something.

This is one or if not the most dangerous amongst my insane fears. For failure to take that risk would mean a lost chance to know what life is.

Perhaps not today, maybe in the upcoming days, but I promise to myself that I will try my best and soon, that fear will vanish in the realms of stupid thoughts.

We have our own fears, doubts and insecurities. Having them, I think, is normal. For these weaknesses reveal our mortality and in our fears, there lies our capacity to love and to achieve greater heights.

“So, do not fear, for I am with you, do not be dismayed, for I am your God, I will strengthen and help you, I will uphold you with my righteous hand."-Isaiah 41:10 

Happy October everyone!

Let me share one of my fave songs from Adele - Chasing Pavements:)

"I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night."- Galileo

As the ray of light suddenly diminished, the used to be well-lighted room was now covered with blind darkness; silence entirely muted every minute sound. Even the cast of the moon’s shadow was far from sight.

The place started to get humid and while groping in the dark in the hope of finding either a worn-out candle or a decent match, I stumbled in an almost endless staircase which made it more difficult if not totally impossible to search for the things I need.

That hurts like hell. I blurted out my frustration.

How could one possibly find those things without any light? I could only go as far as my visibility would lead me. Crazy. I smirked. Even when things came to light or even with broad daylight, the naked eyes can still refused to see and worse, the naked eyes could even deny existence, what more in a place filled with nothing but obscurity?

After my serious and tiring attempts, I decided to just stop. In that still moment of despair when rescue seemed to be futile and my exhaustion is at its all time high. I started to see..

A single…

No…

Many.. I started to see many fireflies flocking the vast wilderness of the night. Their natural glow defeated the gloom that besought the place.What appeared to be a moving constellation finally drowned the darkness.Losing light for a while is not that bad. I told myself.

While appreciating the beauty and gaiety of these fireflies, I managed to open my eyes somehow, not only with the things I just want to see but also with those I hate to see and finally embrace what I am yet to see.

In constantly amusing myself and totally forgetting the need to search for that heedless match/candle, the light made its way back.

Having to deal with darkness can be really dull and sullen but not when those fireflies are around. J