Whether you are falling in a super long line like it is almost like forever for your turn and you’re tempted to sneak in or whether you are waiting for that timing or opportunity, surely everyone may end up losing patience. This is something that we are all guilty of especially when we truly want something or even want to be with someone.

I myself is also guilty of that. I know I’ve been patient. But sometimes, I feel so tired and weary that I would often think of just giving up and let things on their accord. There are so many things that I want to do in my mind yet limited time and some may even be impossible at the moment.

We just have to trust His perfect timing.

So, the question is, can you do all the things you’ve always wanted to do and have all of your wishes come true?

It is definitely a Yes!

God give us everything we ask of Him. In many cases, if ever we don’t receive the specific thing we’ve asked for, it might be that He has better plans in mind or you just really have to wait for the right time. But there is only one thing that is for sure, He is always on time, never early never too late; for the right reason, for the right purpose and for the best person.

Throughout my years of existence in this harsh but beautiful world, I have witnessed how He answered my prayers, from petty requests to miracles. He knows in my heart that I have this one prayer request that I’ve been longing for. I was afraid to ask of it before because I wasn’t worthy along with my thoughts that I could do it on my own. I deluded myself that I could make the right choices on my own but I was so wrong. I fell astray. Yet God is fighting for me and I know how far He has gone to save me.

Whatever is meant to be will always find a way.

And so, I patiently wait and I will wait for that prayer to be granted just like how I’ve been patient with all the other things. Great things come to those who wait and I believe that. For when you patiently wait for something, you realize how valuable it is and when you get it, you know it is a gift, a blessing that you have to treasure.

After watching the series, Heirs, I don’t know what came to mind. I suddenly took a pen and abruptly jotted down my thoughts. Pardon my poorly constructed poem, my erratic grammar  and my confusing stance. :D

Dreamcatcher: A Native American craftwork believed                to give its owner good dreams...

Just recently, my friends and I came across this fun site where people can ask you questions and you can also do the same.

Dare to ask me anything, I'll try to give my best answer.:)
http://ask.fm/chakringggg


These past few days, too many negative vibes are encircling around me. So, I found a very cute song to just lighten up the mood.

Me saying, "Hello Mr. Sunshine!"

Maybe it’s the weather to blame. No, it's a lame excuse maybe it’s me. I was inspired to write a poem and express myself through writing. I apologize for any grammatical error. :D 

I know I can be damn too difficult at times.Bear with me :)

My feet head towards you.

I've waited for years and I choose not to settle for anything less than I deserve.

  

Last Saturday where I got to spend a fun movie weekend getaway with my best friends, we watched the movie Pitch Perfect. (I know it’s 2013 and it’s my first time to watch it J) It’s a super hilarious film shown on cinemas last 2012. It’s packed with some of my favorite songs and the nice thing about that movie is that it keeps on reminding me of the things that I have to do with my life.

The quote says it all. :)

Love What You Do

I know I can be stubborn at times. It is not in my nature to go where the crowd goes. I like doing things my way. On a positive note, I’ve always been a believer of my dreams and my passion. In Pitch Perfect, it is simple as it is. If you want to be like P. Diddy and you think you are skilled and good at it then go for it. The limits that you set for yourself are the only limitations. After all, what will you gain if you are not even willing to risk anything? Just like what Steve Jobs said, you don’t have to live in a social dogma. Live the life the way you want it, they way you imagine it to be. In the end, you will only regret the chances you didn’t take.

Now that I am already 25, I know there are still a lot of things that will come my way. But I am willing to fight for my dreams until the end. How will I know if I would not try?

A quote from my all time fave philosopher Lao Tzu

Stop Running Away!

The lead character, played by Anna Kendrick, somehow resembles me in so many ways. Going back, I don’t know where this habit of pushing someone away comes to life. I don’t know if it is because of my fear that I might entrust my heart again to someone who does not deserve it, someone who will break it or is it because I’m just afraid as to what might happen if there is someone who will actually fall in love with me.

But I think my friends are right. I seriously need to rethink my position and I have to find my way back again. I’ve said this a million times and I’ve tried so hard but I guess I need to try harder. Guess, I need to start to get up on my sleeves.

So, future beau, please bear with me haha. I know it may take a little bit longer but I hope I’ll be ready and whole. I hope I can be the best person I can be when you meet me.

"Do you know what's waiting beyond that beach? Immortality! Take it, it's yours."-Achilles

Phobia No. 1: Going to a Hospital and Seeing a Doctor

While going to the hospital a few days agoback, it dawned on me how I simply and utterly hate going to hospital. I can’t bear staying in a medical facility for so long or worst; have myself examined by a doctor. I don’t know if it’s because it pains me to see people sick, huge needles or my fear of blood, or probably, all of them.

Ask me if I sleep with lights on? Before…Yes! Haha

My childhood days were spent with lights in my room all turned on. Mind you, my body knows if the light is turned on or turned off even if I am half asleep or when my mind is already in neverland.

Upon entering the university where I stayed in a dormitory, I had no choice but to fight back my fears. My dormates can’t and wouldn’t sleep with lights on.

Thank God I’ve overcome my fear of dark and enclosed spaces. If not, I’ll be stuck out in the elevator with people thinking if I’m a mindless triglodyte lost somewhere in space.

I like kerro keroppi too but not the real ones.

Phobia #3: Fear of Frogs

Whew…just typing the words already gives me those scary chills. 

Animal related phobia is quite normal; I don’t have a friend saying he/she likes holding snakes though I’ve seen some who do.

Goodness. Hearing their kokak kokak chant can almost take the wits out of me. I don’t know what happens but once I see them they really start getting on my nerves. It starts to feel grumpy, slimy, yucky.. I can come up with hundreds of adjectives to describe it now haha.

There’s even one instance where in one of the activities of our organization, we were asked to hold two frogs. You would not have guessed what happened. I freaked out and cried like a river ( Never seen myself cried a liter of tears). For 30 minutes, my stomach turned upside down as my hands held the frogs. Holding them again for another or hour so is enough to kill me haha.

What I always do: pack my things lol

Fear No. 4: Unknown/ Lethal/ Dangerous

But among these fears, there is this type which starts to subtly make its way to me, operating clandestinely in my already drained thoughts. All this time, it’s there. To my surprise, some can even notice it without me knowing.

“You’re always good at running away.” “Lagi kang pack-up mode.”

There appears to be truth in what they say. For this fear is my waterloo, the kind of fear that may break me or can make me whole again.

Running away is not easy either. Days and nights get by where I end up over-analyzing and regretting of some of the chances I wish I could have done something, say something.

This is one or if not the most dangerous amongst my insane fears. For failure to take that risk would mean a lost chance to know what life is.

Perhaps not today, maybe in the upcoming days, but I promise to myself that I will try my best and soon, that fear will vanish in the realms of stupid thoughts.

We have our own fears, doubts and insecurities. Having them, I think, is normal. For these weaknesses reveal our mortality and in our fears, there lies our capacity to love and to achieve greater heights.

“So, do not fear, for I am with you, do not be dismayed, for I am your God, I will strengthen and help you, I will uphold you with my righteous hand."-Isaiah 41:10 

Happy October everyone!

Let me share one of my fave songs from Adele - Chasing Pavements:)

"I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night."- Galileo