Writing love letters.
Composing Poems. My fused attachment with books. My romantic ardour with music.
Strong gastronomic appetite and finally, my zealous and constant search for
knowledge and how it transcends real life.
Going back to my younger
self, so many years aback, only mirrors how my passion and perception for
certain things evolve. All these things sump up the 24 years of my life. I
always find myself in a state of anachronism where sometimes I end up
juxtaposing the past with the present, and the other way around. So, I can’t help
but think. Is it a bad thing or a good one? Along with this belief is where
most of my thoughts and my love for things seem to revolve.
Passion
Being an ardent aficionado
of the ancient world, of the timeless beauty of Greco-Hellenic culture, of the
intricateness and complexity of both old and present societies, of the
universalities of mythologies and of the immortal personification of my highly
admired legendaries, without a doubt this is where my passion lies.
But there was one point in my
life where I felt under siege in this so-called midlife crisis. Hell, it can be
really taxing, gruesome and tedious in a myriad of ways that only those people
who actually experienced it can actually understand what it truly means. I kept posing
senseless and futile questions to myself that sometimes I ended up being more
confused than I truly was.
Suddenly it dawned me, why am I forcing myself to
believe that I don’t know what my real passion is when in fact it has been there all
along? Somewhere in my deep consciousness, it is there, waiting to be
acknowledged, to be reaffirmed. Like most of my Eureka moments, right then and
there, I realized these are the things I love the most, what I am good at. No
matter how long it will take me to achieve my dreams of becoming a diplomat and
wherever my endeavors take me, I will strive hard to get it.
Music
Even in music, my
playlists would never fail to include old songs. The classics dominates my
scanty interest for the contemporary. Why not? The Beatles, the Bread,
Scorpions, Heart. I bet there are others like me who still appreciate and who
hail these songs as the best songs ever written. Though, I would appreciate new
songs, these classics have that exquisite sound I rarely here nowadays.
Love
I consider myself as a
hopeless romantic albeit me being too rational and not to mention my feministic tendencies. My
friends would usually dub me as Gabriela, a persona equivalent to Joan of Arc. (Haha).
Having this kind of labeling is totally fine with me. Guess, I have not yet accepted
to learn the ways of a modern woman towards love and dating in general.
I still operate in my
conventional and conservative beliefs about courtship, dating, etc. Seriously,
I don’t have future plans of changing my views especially when I get to witness
the newfangled and in vogue romantic approach that would often lead a
relationship in shambles.
But for that person who
will put magic to it, for that someone who can really show me what a
Shakespearean love is or even just a close share of it, I guess I might take down my defenses and risk my
complacency. Even I myself cannot possibly tell who will that person be?
;)
Life
“You should live now and think of the future”.
Funny, how this cliché appears to have a contrarian streak for me. There is no
argument in that we have to live by the moment. But how can we live now if we
don’t know the past hiding beneath our consciousness, to be exact in my case my
stubborn consciousness.
Only by knowing the past
and by learning from the circumstances which shaped it, do we truly find
ourselves happy and living at the right time and place- enjoying the present
and hopeful for the future.
And so, as I celebrate my
24th birthday, I wrote this blog entry to remind me of my
affirmation about life- that it is possible for the past to coincide with the
present and with present to the future, even in subtle ways; especially when
you are able to grasp the realities of life-may it be harsh or good and to just
be grateful for the One who created me, who made me this kind of being and who
continues to allow me to explore life in so many ways. God only knows what the
future that lies ahead of me and for everyone else.
With this, I end my blog
with a haiku.
Life will never be a perfect
place
Who cares?
When you put smile on my
face?
P.S.
Thank you for all those
people who make my life a memorable one to live and for those who complete my life's ensemble. You’ve got me covered. I am truly blessed to have you throughout these years. ;)
8 comments
this is definitely one of your strengths :) i like the part about looooveee lol
ReplyDeletechakrring, such a detailed, straightforward blog! ur choice of words truly show how you can express your thoughts in a creative and fun way. :)
ReplyDeleteoh my god!are you are reincarnation of some renaissance writer or what hahaha but seriously i like it
ReplyDelete@sab: wahaha adik lang ang twag dyan
ReplyDelete@achi: now im starting to think if it is a good thing?lol
You've got a nice blog post!
ReplyDeleteNgayon ko lang nakita to..awwttt Char full of emotions we love you alam mo yan..kaya magpainum ka na wohoooo
ReplyDeleteGrabehan lang naman kasi ang standards Shakespeare ba daw?bwahaha but kidding aside you will find him girl and he is somewhere out there looking for you. i lablab you okei?
ReplyDelete@maria: magpainum bagong buhay n ko chos haha kayo nga dpat ngpapinum eh lol
ReplyDelete@che: kaya nga close share of it hahaha who knows di ba and im hopeful lang naman dn i lablab u too lol