I dont remember vividly the last time ive ever felt like i needed something...someone..That special someone...

Though in my wild days of existence ive been in constant search for the sole thing all us have been wanting...-happiness.

Seeing many different faces, wandering in boisterous and in mute places,i cant even seem to have a glimpse of that one radiant face that couldsimply make me smile for no reason at all...and just feel the joy thatthank God im alive...

Past events that transpired might have changed my perception on some things...But just keenly observing from afar,it just occurred to my thoughts...that all of us have the right to find that person who can ease out just about everything with one look...

At this point in time, i guess, patience would pay-off..You dont have to kiss a bunch of losers just to get the right one..

So for now, I'm gonna do my thing..and be happy...

Coz somewhere...fate would decree that i would meet finally meet him..

When that time comes, I wont let go...

Yeah..It does sound like an old cliche.. Plus the fact that even though we often tell ourselves that line to remind us that we should hold on and be strong, sometimes it just wouldnt work. And worst sometimes, one feels likes its not gonna work.

But there are moments in our lives when we just cant simple say, "I quit.", becuase if you do then it will all be over.

Like in my case, I feel tired, weak and i feel like my energy is in its all time low. There's a part of me who wants to give up already and my i-dont-care-anymore attitude starts to surface. Now, I am definitely suffering from the so called academic-stress-you-have-to-graduate-on-time sickness. I'm lucky i dont feel any pressure from my parents. But as for myself, I dont know why 'm killing myself just to work on my thesis...Since I want to graduate, I have to do it.

God is there to help me. I know he will never let me down.

I just need to endure the last quarter of the race and I would do anything to finish it. So never ever quit!

Dreams…This is the only venue where I can see you again, laugh with you just like the old times…the way we used to… Its’ been almost a year… Are you happy there? I hope so… Many things have already changed and events have passed. But our yearning to be with you again hasn't changed and will never change.

Yesterday night, I dreamt of you together with our other bearians… When I woke up it made me think, this was the only time you visited me again in my dreams…I hope you are not scaring me..hehehe..

In my dreams, we were all in a graduation pictorial… and you were wearing a white dress. I don’t know what it meant but for sure you want to send some important message not only for me but to other bearians as well.

At least even in dreams…we can be with you…We can feel some sense of reality though we know that when we woke up and open our eyes, we just have to face the truth that you’re really gone.I love you so much and BC4f loves you so much too. We pray for your soul and I know you are happy with God now...

宇多田ヒカル Flavor of Life by Utada Hikaru





English Translation

Whenever you tell me thank you
It's somehow bittersweet
The spell doesn't break after you say goodbye
Faintly bitter
The flavor of life

We're in the middle, neither friends nor lovers
Green fruit dreaming of the harvest

We can't take that one last step
So it's so irritating or something, baby

Whenever you tell me thank you
It's somehow bittersweet
The spell doesn't break after goodbye
Faintly bitter
The flavor of life

Sweet words of seduction
Flavorless talk
That doesn't pique my interest

Even when things don't go your way
Life's not a total wash

"What's up?" you suddenly ask
No, it's nothing
My smile disappears after you say goodbye
It's not like me

The more I want to believe
It's somehow bittersweet
Don't you think "I really like you"
Suits you better than "I love you"?
The flavor of life

I suddenly remember
The scent of a person I'd almost forgotten
I want to be able to just sit back and enjoy
The white snow fall

I want a warm future
Softer than a diamond
I want to spend this limited time we have with you

Whenever you tell me thank you
It's somehow bittersweet
The spell doesn't break after you say goodbye
Faintly bitter
The flavor of life...
Translation by Megchan

I was watching the morning talk show Boy and Kris just last week when Kris Aquino asked Chritine Reyes regarding her crush and she said. "Robert Pengson... the chef...pero he's getting married na ata..."


After hearing that one, I was like, What???? Chef Robert, my long-time super crush chef is getting married?..hehe..lol...I know I was overreacting and even my mom agreed to it..hehe..It's just a crush anyway. Actually, at first I dont know who this Chef Rob all these girls are talking about. One of my friends, who happens to have a crush on him too told me to watch a cooking show on QTV 11, Chef to go. Since I love eating and anything that has something to do with food interests me, I watched the show (though I don't know how to cook lol). Thats the time when I saw the chef cooking the dish, I was stunned ahahaha...a oh-mylicious hunk chef ...So from that time, my friend and I are hooked with this chef hehe...








I thought he was single...I was assuming...hehe..as if I have the chance..lol..It was only that time I realized.."With his charming smile and his connoisseur in cooking,he can't be single. Of course he'll get married sooner or later, many women will die just to hear him say I do.." No doubt,Chef Robert is one of the hottest bachelors in town.
But while searching the net..ahaha..I found out he got married already... Well I'm happy that the girl from the Tropicana commercial who happens to be a chef too was the lucky girl. Wow, imagine the two of them Sunshine Puey and Rob are both chefs. For sure they'll cook the best foods they could prepare for the family they will be having in the future.
But nothing wont change. I still admire Chef Rob and I'm looking for a hot chef in the future to be my husband..kidding..!ahaha