He loves you with all his heart,

following you like a shadow.

Yet when the man smiles, he is crying inside.

“How much longer, how much more do I just have to look at you?

This love like the wind, is it worth it?

If I keep trying, will you fall in love with me?

Come closer to me, even just a bit close

I’m the one who loves you, the one by your side,

that man who is crying.”

That man who is good at hiding,

he learned how to laugh even if his heart is full of scars

And that’s the man who love you just the same.

Maybe he's just another fool

“Is it wrong to you to hold me before you leave?

I want to be loved. That is the only truth I known.”

Know that I’m that man.

 This song is just ♥♥♥

But let’s face it, the road is never going to be that easy. There will come to a point where you have to face not one, not two but a lot of divergent roads and you have to choose which way to go. Lots of times, I would end up confused, muddleheaded and in complete disarray. Yet, in my mind, I know what I have always wanted to do and to achieve. So even if I am going out of the mainstream, even if I am not following the crowd, I know my heart will lead me to that place where I should go. In life, we cannot just follow where everyone goes. We always do not have to fit in. What is important above all is that you love what you do, you are happy with it, you contribute something to society and you have personal growth.

The same thing goes for relationships with people- Relationship with friends, lovers and family. No matter how things get rough and rocky. Even if you will have to deal with conflicts, a series of debates, misunderstandings and fights, you cannot give up on them. At least on the romantic side, I’m benefitted of the fact that I am a woman. Women can only go as far as the men can go. If they give up then what can women do?

On a whim, at least it is much easier to find a solution for the petty things that you have always wanted. Either you choose to finally let it go or do something to get it. The choices are pretty easy.  But if it has something to do with what you will do all your life or even the person you will be committing to for a lifetime, it almost the same. You have to make a choice and stand by it.

My choice now is that I will not give up and I will not be shaken.

Just when you thought of giving up..

Dreams- I know I am getting there. I can have it, maybe not at all at the same time but I will have it.

I hope I can find one. :)

Love- I am still not giving up on you. So please don’t give up on me too. J If I come too late, chances are I am in need of saving lol.

Petty things- A chocolate ice cream and pizza will do. Haha

My choices can either be right or wrong, but today is definitely not the day to identify which one is either of the two. Luckily, I live for the present. The future has too many worries and you cannot allow the past to haunt you. Just keep fighting. Keep going! Aja!