P.S. The other day my friend and I were talking about taking chances in love and even in other things that we do not have any control of. I agree with her that if we want to be happy, we should dare explore all the chances and not to be afraid of the things that we can have. I think this is also a good way for me to practice my creative skills. :)
Dark clouds begin to
gather on the sky.
The weather is getting nasty and gloomier than ever. As I struggle to catch my breath, I slowly nuzzle my nose to prevent the sudden outburst of
tears about to fall. Feeling the strong palpitation of my heart, I look around
and search for that familiar face.
Just as my grip loosens, I
realize that the person I am looking for, the one I ever want to have is also
the same person I have been trying to runaway from.
When I finally catch
another breath, a cold crisp of air filled my lungs. I can feel my heart
contracting heavily. It is mad. It is in grief
and I can feel its remorse. For the nth time, my mind has succumbed to
the dominance of my mind.
Stopping for a moment, I
gaze at the sky, coal black clouds signaling heavy rain. And exactly in the
same spot, I felt a sudden shiver down my spine, a shiver almost same as the
strike of a lightning bolt. But along with this unexplainable effect are my
endless thoughts of you. You are the person I ever want. But I don’t know why
fear lingers on?
In my wildest reasoning, I
start to think I can lose you. With just one wrong move, I can never hold you
again. Amidst this cynicism, I ask myself, how can I ever have you in my life
if I can’t even acknowledge the feelings I have longed suppress?
Battling arguments on my
mind make me more confused. About to give in, I just slowly cover my face. As
my tears start to fall, I have finally allowed my vulnerability to get the best
of me. “Someone help me, please.” are the only words I could utter.
In a single throbbing
moment, I felt a slight pat on my shoulder. Perhaps, someone sympathizes with me,
I said, trying to convince myself. Just as I slowly open my eyes, your face
comes to light. As my vision gets clearer, my heart has also found its way.
There are no other places to go. There is no sane reason why I should in the
first place.
My attempt to runaway
again is just but a futile and desperate move to restrict myself to have that
one thing that only you can give – true love.
Why do I have to make
things hard for myself? Fear of almost all possible scenarios about our ending
already entered my mind. But as you start to pull me close to you, as you hold
on to me not wanting to leave, everything just vanished. I could only think of
the best and the happiest memories we can create together.
As I try to win my heart
over, you just hold me tighter. Looking up, the darks clouds are now gone. The
rain has stopped and so is my anxious mind. In the broad daylight, you have
revealed yourself. In that instant, I know this is where I belong and this is
where I want to stay, here with you. After a long time, I have never felt this
unusual bliss.
7 comments
wow charl. that was too detailed. is this written for creative purposes?haha i dun think so
ReplyDeleteSabi na. Panu ba naman kasi garbriela sinu ba humahabol sau??? lol
ReplyDeleteAyun na nga ba sinasabi ko kaya pala ayaw mo manuod ng a secret affair haha joke lang. So, may revelation na palang naganap? did he profess himself ===> i would suppose my presumptions are right
ReplyDeleteIncredible! This blog looks just like my old
ReplyDeleteone! It's on a entirely different topic but it has pretty much the same page layout and design. Excellent choice of colors!
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@JK: YES! purely for creative purposes haha weyo?
ReplyDelete@grace: Lol no one is running after me :D
@Ria: Ehhh nakakasawa na kasi ung ganung movie ayaw mo nman ng suddenly its magic ntuwa pa ko ke mario hihi at take note walang revelation nagaganp sinu naman mgpprofess. this is just plainly a product of my imagination haha
i wish i can write like this
ReplyDeleteHi aya-san! ogenki desu ka? your English is definitely improving :)
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