Finding the right way of which I should turn, suddenly it dawned on me that I am now sailing an uncharted sea with only a map and my so called audacity of hope. Sometimes I am looking for that suffused light to shine on me and to steer a compass to lead me directly to the place I have always wanted to go.
But we know that life isn't as simple as that. We don't have any maneuvered contraption to use as a guide. Only a strong faith and that unwavering belief serve as our intermediaries in this life's battle. The tiring quotidian routine, growing weariness,meaningless confusions might sometimes lead me to think that all of my effort is a waste and that the precedent is veritable.
And hell yes,foolish thoughts like these can also make things look more complicated as they are. I guess I really fail in this aspect of having a very long patience and to just stop having to drown myself with useless apprehensions. Now is the time to sift out what is valuable and focus on what I have to do.
Too bad that my heart and mind in most instances would head on collision. My mind being the rationale,firm,argumentative and practical while my recalcitrant heart- the soft, the vulnerable and romanticist one. Believe me whenever I have all these things going on my head,its a big headache. How I wish I can have that cunning skill to reconciliate these two. I need to outthink my stubborn thinking.
Still I admit that though things are disarrayed for a while. My ounce of hope never leave me. I have always been a believer of going after what I want and to strive harder to get it. The time will come when things will all be placed in harmony;in its rightful palce. And so I begin to change my outlook in life. I am banning all negative thoughts from now on.
For Charline's weather forecast, I know that the upcoming days will dance under the bland summer breeze. From now on I'll stray away from negative thoughts and just be happy.
But we know that life isn't as simple as that. We don't have any maneuvered contraption to use as a guide. Only a strong faith and that unwavering belief serve as our intermediaries in this life's battle. The tiring quotidian routine, growing weariness,meaningless confusions might sometimes lead me to think that all of my effort is a waste and that the precedent is veritable.
And hell yes,foolish thoughts like these can also make things look more complicated as they are. I guess I really fail in this aspect of having a very long patience and to just stop having to drown myself with useless apprehensions. Now is the time to sift out what is valuable and focus on what I have to do.
Too bad that my heart and mind in most instances would head on collision. My mind being the rationale,firm,argumentative and practical while my recalcitrant heart- the soft, the vulnerable and romanticist one. Believe me whenever I have all these things going on my head,its a big headache. How I wish I can have that cunning skill to reconciliate these two. I need to outthink my stubborn thinking.
Still I admit that though things are disarrayed for a while. My ounce of hope never leave me. I have always been a believer of going after what I want and to strive harder to get it. The time will come when things will all be placed in harmony;in its rightful palce. And so I begin to change my outlook in life. I am banning all negative thoughts from now on.
For Charline's weather forecast, I know that the upcoming days will dance under the bland summer breeze. From now on I'll stray away from negative thoughts and just be happy.
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Charkring,do you know what one of my best feelings in the world is? It's the feeling of having my one and only Charkring, whom I have known since we were in kindergarten. I could never have imagined if wala ka sa buhay ko Charkring. You're my hope. :) u3!
ReplyDeleteaww baks same goes for me as well..Im glad to have you and be your friend in this lifetime.. labxoo baks ;)) hugs
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