Rough Road
By charline - Friday, October 01, 2010
My thoughts for the past few days are messed up. For once in my life, I've never felt my weak emotions are now starting to drown me into madness I know I couldn't evade. Letting go of what your heart truly feels is just as same weight as accepting what your mind tells you to do. Beyond any rational judgement I am trying to conjure is a creeping unreasonable thought of accepting I know something is wrong and I just cant pretend things will be better.
I guess you really cannot escape pain and hurt when loving someone. I want to walk away, turn my back, and just forget everything that have happened. In as much as my mind is competing with my heart and saying that I should step my feet forward, the other one says stay. Who knows what this whole thing will give to me?Both two sides of my very close friends whom I confided the matter have a point.
Why not give the person a chance and dont look at him in a bad light? The other side says,you've given him a lot of chances already and he blew it. You deserve someone better,way way better than him. But the other side would argue, what if he is really the one for you and you just didnt trust him and give him the chance to finally prove himself.... Oh boy, and the rest of the arguments follow...
I know I have to take a stand..I have to decide...But I guess they are right..I deserve someone who will be sincere, honest with me. Someone who will really prove himself worthy and someone who will fight for me until the end.
Falling in love at the wrong time, at the wrong place is a bit difficult expecially if situations are complicated.Too much emotions are at stake.
But after contemplating on somethings, finally my heart and mind in unison already gave me the answer. Follow your heart, and if you get lost use your head to come back.
If he is the one, he'll do everything to have you back. If it's not him, then it might have been someone else all this time.
I guess you really cannot escape pain and hurt when loving someone. I want to walk away, turn my back, and just forget everything that have happened. In as much as my mind is competing with my heart and saying that I should step my feet forward, the other one says stay. Who knows what this whole thing will give to me?Both two sides of my very close friends whom I confided the matter have a point.
Why not give the person a chance and dont look at him in a bad light? The other side says,you've given him a lot of chances already and he blew it. You deserve someone better,way way better than him. But the other side would argue, what if he is really the one for you and you just didnt trust him and give him the chance to finally prove himself.... Oh boy, and the rest of the arguments follow...
I know I have to take a stand..I have to decide...But I guess they are right..I deserve someone who will be sincere, honest with me. Someone who will really prove himself worthy and someone who will fight for me until the end.
Falling in love at the wrong time, at the wrong place is a bit difficult expecially if situations are complicated.Too much emotions are at stake.
But after contemplating on somethings, finally my heart and mind in unison already gave me the answer. Follow your heart, and if you get lost use your head to come back.
If he is the one, he'll do everything to have you back. If it's not him, then it might have been someone else all this time.
4 comments
HAY NAKUH kng ako tlga tatanungin mo bakla wag na maghanap ka nalang ng iba...marami dyan for sure mkakahanap ka pa
ReplyDeleteongaa bakit ka ba ngtyatayaga dun wake up
ReplyDeletegago yang lalaking yan habang maaga pa sinsabihan n kta lauyan m n yan
ReplyDeleteare you decided na?basta ako girl alam mo na kung wala din xang kayang ibgay at puro nalang sakit sa ulo at paghihirap why stay?basta we are here for you mwah xoxo
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