12 months, almost 360 days have passed since the last time I saw a loved one who died in a fire accident. I dont want to count the hours, the minutes because I dont know how I was able to surpass everything for the whole year.

Losing someone you love and someone you really treasure is like losing a part of yourself. Honestly, up until now, I dont know which way to start.

I guess I've been too weak. I admit that. It will never be easy to let go of someone you know you'll never see again.

Before, I thought, everything will be fine. Back to my old routines, my usual ways, I was fine. But lately, when I just start to reminisce all the good and happy memories we all have shared. Things just start to fall apart.

My emotion is on the loose. I can't help but to be vulnerable to this endless and sad circumstance.

Indeed it will never be easy to bring back everything in my life just the way it was. Yes, I believe I'm still holding on and moving on. But my miseries are just like subtle forces that snatches me away from the real world i'm living.

I know I've been selfsih because I can't let go. But I'm trying, God knows how much I have tried. Time wont heal the wound perfectly but I know it will lessen the pain.

I miss you so much...

I know somewhere in that silver lining you're happy to be with the OUR CREATOR, OUR GOD SAVIOUR..

I know someday we will meet again..somewhere...

But for now, after 1 year, I'm still grieving...