Opulent Odyssey: August 2008

Poetry

By charline - Friday, August 08, 2008

Tryin'

I guess im so wrong to expect much from you

I risk all of my love, now what can i do?

Sitting here in the corner of my room hurtin

Facing the longest nights, my heart is trying....

Pre-chorus:

Trying to mend my broken heart....

Trying to face the truth we're now apart/

Chorus:

So tell me what i gotta do

Should i just forget about u?

How long must i endure,

this endless suffering..

i need some cure...

Im seeking for some real answers

to stop myself from useless crying...

leave u behind im trying...

verse 2:

Walking at the cross roads, im all so confused

Realizing some thoughts i feel like ive been used

If youre gonna ask me whats left for us,its 2 late

I have already decided to change my fate...

so im trying..

repeat pre-chorus..

coda..

tell me what u gonna do

now..im trying to runaway from u..

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Life

After 1 year, Im still grieving...

By charline - Friday, August 08, 2008

12 months, almost 360 days have passed since the last time I saw a loved one who died in a fire accident. I dont want to count the hours, the minutes because I dont know how I was able to surpass everything for the whole year.

Losing someone you love and someone you really treasure is like losing a part of yourself. Honestly, up until now, I dont know which way to start.

I guess I've been too weak. I admit that. It will never be easy to let go of someone you know you'll never see again.

Before, I thought, everything will be fine. Back to my old routines, my usual ways, I was fine. But lately, when I just start to reminisce all the good and happy memories we all have shared. Things just start to fall apart.

My emotion is on the loose. I can't help but to be vulnerable to this endless and sad circumstance.

Indeed it will never be easy to bring back everything in my life just the way it was. Yes, I believe I'm still holding on and moving on. But my miseries are just like subtle forces that snatches me away from the real world i'm living.

I know I've been selfsih because I can't let go. But I'm trying, God knows how much I have tried. Time wont heal the wound perfectly but I know it will lessen the pain.

I miss you so much...

I know somewhere in that silver lining you're happy to be with the OUR CREATOR, OUR GOD SAVIOUR..

I know someday we will meet again..somewhere...

But for now, after 1 year, I'm still grieving...

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Life

Missing You

By charline - Friday, August 08, 2008

Oftentimes,whenever I get awakened suddenly in the wee hours of the morning, all i see is myself imagining that you're still there... Then a subtle cold breeze touches my cheek, that's when I reliaze that i'm actually dreaming... I asked myself many times..Why is it have to be you? Why do you have to leave me, and all the people who love you?

The feeling of guilt still haunts me until today.. I feel guilty for taking you for granted, for throwing away the time we could have spent together... No matter how hard I try to make it all up to you, time won't allow it..life won't allow it... We are heaven and earth apart. I wish there is really a god for the dead like Hades so that your life can be brought back to us. But i know it's impossible, a way too impossible for us to see you again, to hold you again...

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Life

By charline - Friday, August 08, 2008

Just when I thought...

..... I could never have a thesis topic, but because of my adviser's unquestionable kindness, I was able to have one. I was so fed up these past few days thinking of so many things in my mind just to come up with a not-so-feasible-mediocre type and still ended up having none. When all of my friends are already starting with their own respective work, I was there clueless with nothing at all. Fortunately,now I have it already, its time to start and work very hard.

.....I could never smile for just simple reasons, but when I heard of Wu Zhun coming here in the Philippines, it made me really really happy..hehe (Yeah..I'm a big fan of wu zun...He's just so...yummy..hahaha ).. I am so busy that I notice I barely laugh...

.....I could stand on my own, but situations proved me wrong. I don't have the habit of sharing my problems and my thought to anyone. I only share problems to those people whoa re very close to me. Thats the strange side of me. But lately the burden is just too much to carry, so I admit to myself i need some help. Thank goodness I know there are people who will just be there when I need them..

.....life is just full of miseries and disappointments, I have realized these elements will always be a part of ones life...Life is not just a box of choclates..It's been almost a year since the time I lost my very good friend... going on with life after losing someone was a tough road I had to take all alone... I am coping. Lately, ive been getting a lot of pressures and I just need some sort of an escape... But when I feel sad, i just think of the people who love me and then I cant help but to think that after all life is still worth living...

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