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| Freedom is mine...You know how i feel.. |
With so many negative vibes trying to drown me these
past few days, my brain is getting some comfort and refuge from Nina Simone’s
song. My classes have finally started and sure this is one hell of a semester.
Geez even some of my thoughts just now got infected with negativity lol. But to
some extent, it can be a good thing, to hope for the best and to expect for the
worst. I know I have this really wrong habit of hoping and expecting too much
which always put me on the receiving end or should I say the losing end. Yet,
it is something we can’t help but always do right? When you think of what could
possibly go wrong with all the aspects in your life, will it change anything?
Oh,it can. It can make you feel worse.
So instead of facing what comes ahead, I would always
pack my things and leave which again, is another thing I should get rid of. The
past weeks, the atmosphere was a bit cruel, stormy and up to some point, felt
like a dead end. With all my nonsensical
worries about the future and with people who you thought could be trusted but
betrayed you, I just found all the reasons to find the door and walk straight
through it. It is wrong, that I am aware
of. But after putting your trust on people who hurt you and lured you into
trickery to the point of making you a fool, do they even need an
explanation?
Yet, having to bear the weight of putting yourself
into thinking too much of the bad things of what happened, what might have
happened or what will happen do no good either. Life is a constant struggle
that we have to face. Whether I like it or not, I have to face darkness of the
night and just hope for the bright
sunshine of a new day to come in. Well at least, for tonight, I decided to let
go of any worries, negative thoughts and all of the cynical what-ifs.
Feeling Good. Yeah, I do. I hope. J
