Nowadays, I keep on attempting to write things that are beyond my usual theme; something that I haven’t really experienced and just find inspiration to write about it. The theme of the following write up came from another Korean drama I recently watched, the series Lie to Me. i hope you'll get to understand the flow of the story based on my write-up. ;)
I used to be crippled with the catena of lies that surround me. Wanting to just give up, I have never felt like my heart is being slowly crushed into diminutive pieces. I was discreetly mad at the world but I had to make myself believe everything was fine. Generalizing the thought that love is defunct or at least for me was way much logically easier than to keep on struggling with my sentimental being. Back then, believing in that magic was something beyond my comprehension. It was futile, it was cynical.
But just one sunny day, the figure of you suddenly changed the mainstream of my thoughts. You subtly disturbed my emotion’s stillness. Then everything abruptly had a 360 degree turn. There is a part of me who wants to get to know you, to enjoy spending every single moment. Gazing through those eyes makes me just melt inside. Slowly my perspective changes, it begins to drift away from the hurtful past I have always wanted to forsake.
Now, being with you seem like a dream I could only take a glimpse of before. But when I touch you, when I hear you laugh, when I feel my heart palpitates for a while and how you simply titillate my psyche, I could not deny from something I am afraid to want. Yes, you are something I am afraid to want. Fear of almost any possible scenarios have conjured up my mind. Fear that I had felt long ago which turned out to be something dreadful, something that almost destroyed me.
But when you reach out for my hand, those stupid thoughts vanish away into wilderness. Was it my capacity to drop those thoughts or was it your effortless magic? Deep down, I know it was no magic, it is just you, your sincerity, your whole being that assures me you won't let go of my hand. There is no need to hear for any promise because I just know, you'll be there just when I need you.
